Posts tagged #mindset
25. Gratitude

Phone calls, texts and computer screens have been challenging lately.  Three weeks ago today I woke up with an intense headache.  A few hours later, not able to keep any food down, we went to the ER…

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24. Fed Up

I am fed up with cancer.  I am fed up with treatment, treatment options, the diet, the medication and supplement protocols, all of it. My results from my last scans weren’t terrible, but they weren’t great either…

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23. Demon-Wrestling

This week I’ve been wrestling demons whose names are exhaustion, fear and sadness.  Each on their own are quite manageable, but it’s their teaming up to beat my ass to a pulp this week that’s been hard to take…

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22. Lessons From Grief

Today is my mother’s birthday, she would have been 75.  If she were alive, she’d have reveled in it, and our family would’ve all gathered to help her celebrate.  It is also the day of the funeral for Dave’s childhood friend, and these two milestones will forevermore be inextricably linked…

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21. Vitality

My radiation therapy continues to go well, I’m now over halfway done.  The pain in my hip seems to be reducing by the day, and I’ll be rescanned in the last week of June to track progress.  Cross all fingers and toes, please…

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20. Looking in the Rearview With Eyes on the Road

A quick update: My radiation sessions are going well.  I’m a third done and there has already been a significant reduction on the mass in my pelvis, much to the surprise of the radiation oncologist (apparently it usually takes longer to see results, especially for the type of cancer I have)… 

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19. Slow Burn Resilience

I’m feeling much better this week.  Take a deep breath with me and let’s revel in that for a moment.  It felt hard there for a second.

I have a question for you: Do you ever go through an emotional experience, or an introspective period and when you come out the other end you can recognize that you’re not the same person you were even a short period of time ago?…

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18. A Week of Weird After a Week of Travel

I’ve been procrastinating writing this post for over a week because I’ve not been in a good headspace.  I’ve been in the weeds. A couple of weeks ago, I had a follow-up PET scan and brain MRI to establish new baselines after finishing chemo… with mixed results…

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17. Ninety-Nine Percenting

I’ve been struggling with keeping my diet “clean” over the last couple of weeks, since my appetite hungrily returned after the detox.  I’ve been waiting on a plan and recipes for the plant-based ketogenic diet from a contact I’d made in Phoenix… and in the meantime, the wheels just about fell off the cancer-fighting food wagon…

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11. The Benefits of Mindfulness

I’m often reminded of the benefits of mindfulness while on the trail.  This last cycle, I’ve had two days that I’d describe as anxiety-filled, related to having my latest scan.  Let’s start with the good news first with the results -- most of my tumors have decreased in size, the rest are stable.  We continue to lengthen the runway!  Woohoo!!...

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8. Changing My Mindset Could Save My Life

My foray into immunotherapy has started a bit earlier than expected!  During my treatment last week, my oncologist added in Ramucirumab (Cyramza) to my FOLFIRI chemotherapy.  It is a fully human monoclonal antibody drug used to target a specific cell mutation that I have, called VEGF...

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